Post by Rachel Plencner on Oct 4, 2012 23:39:45 GMT -6
(I will so get hate for this.. but I was kinda the biggest comp whore ever so it fits. 
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) Well now that I've found my DR, and have had some time to reflect on everything, I'll give my final words.
First and foremost Julie, I want to thank you soooo much for inviting me back. You have no idea how much it meant to me to come back for a second time. I wanted to play this series so bad, and to go out when I did the first time was certainly beyond disappointing to me. I know I had my doubters coming into this and I think I proved nearly every single one of them wrong.
Secondly, for anyone who reads my DR, take this as a disclaimer right here.. that all the mean things I said in it shouldn't be taken personal. I use DRs in all games as a place to vent and just talk so much shit because I get frustrated with the other players in the game, so this should by no means be taken personally. I think you're all wonderful people outside of the game regardless of the opinions I formed about all of you inside the game.
Third, and finally before I get to my final words towards the cast. I want to apologize to Drew, Amy, Karen, Enzo, and anybody else in the ORG world who was rooting for me. You all spoke such encouraging words to me and all gave me so much support either before you left or in the case of Enzo and Karen in little messages I'd get every now and then about how you wanted me to win so bad. I'm beyond sorry I couldn't bring this home for you guys. I feel like I really let you down. I think you'd want me to be proud of myself after having the entire fucking house against me since Week 3/4, but I still can't help but feel like I didn't do enough and for that reason I am so sorry.
Now.. that I've got that off my chest, here's final thoughts on the cast. If I get harsh, as I said before don't take it personally, it's just how I feel in a game sense.
Jun. I have no idea what you're problem is. If you're still mad at me for something over six months ago now that's fine. I don't really care but I think you really should get over this. I wrote I think in my first DR I wanted to reconcile, but you're the one still holding the grudge, and I really wish you'd just get over it.
Braden. Oh Dylan. You won't read this. I really wish you had actually been into this game, but you were so focused on Sausage. You would have made a great ally... you know if you hadn't turned into a troll.
Amy. (((((((HUGS)))))))) You know how much I adore you. I think it's absolutely ridiculous you went out when you did and even more absurd that it was the Dreamcrushers launching an indirect attack on me. You really were robbed this season, and I cannot apologize more for not saving you in Week 2.
Britney. Crazy slut. I've missed you since you left. I wish you didn't lose your sanity but you did and you paid for it. I love you though. You keep it trill. Please return some day! <3
Chima. I know hardly anything about you. You're a really enigmatic player. You seemed to know how to really play back in the older Recycled days but here you seemed off.
Jason. It's a shame you're so desperately in love with Porsche. I don't know what you're deal is with her aside from being in the Fail Rangers alliance in SI3, but you really are a good social player. Just annoying that you, Porsche, and Lori shacked up like you did.
Nick. If you happen to stumble upon this. I did like you, I want you to know that much, and I really wish you would drop this misconception that Karen and I are horrible people. Your eviction had to do with me not feeling like I could trust you, and the fact you could almost never keep your cool when it came down to your neck being on the line really made it hard to trust you/want to work with you. On top of that knowing about your other alliances hurt your case and I just couldn't deal with you calling me a liar, and trying to get me to crack when you had your little secrets to.
Porsche. I am quite frankly disgusted with you. I used to think the world of you Porsche, and you know that but the way I've seen you play these last three months has been disgusting. I walk into Jury and you say you'd never cheat/mess with the integrity of a game. What a lie that is. Because sharing answers in the auction Veto and then subtly trying to get me to help you in the Veto you went home on isn't cheating or anything.
OH and what about Jun telling you every little thing about the comeback twist? Funny how you say things like, "I think I'll miss the boat" in regards to being eligible for the twist, and how you knew one esixted, but you walk around and act like little miss perfect. You are singly the most hypocritical ORGer I know right now, and I used to respect you so much, but now you rely way to much on pregames and acting like a saint when you're just as much a wolf in sheep's clothing as other players. I really hope someone puts you in your place because you constantly going after players because you either think they're me or going after friends of mine like swinubble again and again is just wrong. I really hope you stumble upon that one and explain yourself because that's not cool. I told you I liked you and just didn't want to be a puppet in your game this season. Don't take me not doing what you wanted as a reason to gun for anyone associated with me. Karen. I feel you got a raw deal. You know I stand by you, and I don't think you cheated at all, and that's how I'll always feel, regardless of what housecalls or anyone else thinks. You were my right hand woman and I've missed you so much, I'd do anything to have you back here. I'm sorry you went out the way you did and I hope I made you proud in the way I played this season. I hope our paths cross again someday.
Dominic. Oh Dom. I've missed you to, but you were very busy this game. I'm sorry for taking you out, you know it was just me playing the game, and I'm glad you understand that. Honey Badgers for life! <3
Josh. I like you. I don't understand your disdain for me. You were playing the game, and I recognized your double dealing and did something about it. Sorry that it ended your game, but I didn't want to be played and when I saw you aligning yourself with the entire house, I was gonna do something about it. Your gameplay was just annoying because you seemed to think you were an amazing player, and your performance last season wasn't a great reflection of that. I do think you played a better game this season than last, but I didn't like how you were trying to set yourself up to float again.. so I killed you. I really wish you'd get over this and stop calling me a bitch, because I harbor no ill will towards you, but guess what playa, you got played!
Drew. Drew <333. You were my night in shining armor. I feel absolutely horrible that you Veto'ing me has given you this reputation of being the biggest idiot ever. I did everything I could to avenge your name but it just wasn't enough. I'm so sorry you sacrificed yourself for nothing. I'll make it up to you somehow I promise.
Russell. Oh Russell. I'm so glad we made up this game. It meant the world to me to finally be able to work with you. I was really annoyed that you did pretty much everything Lori told you to do again, but at least you didn't play against me haha, well at least not towards the end of your game. Thank you so much for the encouraging words since I've gotten to Jury as well. It's helped a lot. I'll leave this series with a high respect for you regardless of what everyone else said about your gameplay this season. You really are a class act and know how to be a good sport.
Lori. I don't know what to say to you at. all. Ever since I've been evicted you have been acting like the biggest baby ever. Ignoring me, smiting me, being nice to everyone but me. Whatever, you need to get over yourself. I love how when you backstabbed me in Starz it was completely okay, and I told you I was fine, but I was going to make a bitter speech and I did, but all of a sudden when I do it to you in a series you've already won, you want to turn into a little baby and act like I just broke your heart.
Turn into another Jun and never talk to me again if that's what you wish to do. I personally think it's ridiculous you didn't even walk into Jury rooting for me. I wanted you to get to the end in Starz, but you were just too upset with me I guess. It's even more annoying I wasn't even nearly as fake with you as you were to me all of this game and in Starz and you're still being a bitter betty. Doesn't being backstabbed and lied to the way you did to me feel great? What I said holds true though. Your eviction had nothing to do with Starz. It had to do with me not being able to feel like I could trust you because I knew you had so many deals and that the rest of the floaters hated me more than they did you, so I had to take out my biggest competition. At the end of the day, it sucks if this is the end of the road for the two of us in ORGs. I really do adore you as a person, and I hope you get over this, but I have a feeling you're looking for an excuse to join the hate Rachel club with Jun and Porsche. What I said about getting to know you the past 4-5 months holds true and I'll miss every single conversation we've had during that time period, but at this point it's really up to you whether or not you want to still remain in touch or even friends after this. I'm pretty much over the game aspect of all this. And now the final three. I bet they feel like they played me into getting Lori evicted when I had her slated as a target long before they started throwing her under the bus. Anyways, Idk who I'll vote for but here's what I think about them, and what they can read about themselves after the game.
Cassandra. It's really embarrassing she's going to be in the final two again. She isn't as good player as she's given credit for. She can be fake, and be perceptive if people tell her what's going on but that's it. Her making F2 would be an embarrassment to the series given she'll be next to someone who isn't much more deserving than her. That and she'll be like OMG I'm Sandra Diaz Twine, I'm a goddess!
I did like her better this game, but I felt she was being 100% fake to me, and her whole I have no chance of winning this game is just a ploy so she can try to sway the Jury. Dick. Don't know what to think of this one. I like him okay when he acts like a sane human being, but I don't understand his need to just attack everyone. (Like all the jurors....) Like how is that fun to just go and tell people they suck at life or that they are complete idiots? He's still a flaming homo and I really do hope this is all just an act and in no way serious because being that much of a douche to people makes him seem legit mentally insane.
Parker. He's a nice kid. I'd have a hard time voting for him because he's extremely conservative and kinda clueless.. but a nice kid. I do consider him a friend just because I think he's a really nice person but in terms of saying how much he really deserves to win this game, I'm not sure. I can easily stand back and say if he is with Cassandra in the F2 he made the right decision (Unless the Jury goes stupid, which they probably will) but still, it's annoying I'm not going to be there with him.. because I had no loyalty to Dick and was taking him to the end. (FBRD <3)
And I think that's all. My video confessionals are being edited out. If anybody wants them, I'll be open to showing them if they ask for them privately but otherwise it was meant for the eyes and ears of my DR only.
I'm really disappointed I'm here with another 4th place finish in a game. Ugh I always feel like Cirie. So close but so far. Julie if you ever do an Ultimate Game I would be honored if you invited me to it. As stressful as this god forsaken game was the whole way through, with something going wrong for me every week (Except Week 1) I'd be honored to play again.
And with that, unless any invitations get extended to me for other games, I am indefinitely retired/on hiatus. I'm done signing up for ORGs as I need to focus on school among other things. It's been a fun 9 months, even though I've had to deal with constant haters, and people who are scared to death of me for Idk what reason, but this is how my ORG career will end for now, and I'm glad I could end it here. Just gotta throw a vote someone's way and I'm done.. *Nostalgia*
It's been real housecalls and Julie! I've enjoyed every second of this experience, and with that I bid you guys goodbye!
