Confessionals - Week 6

[Karen O'Neil]

This is just wonderful! I can't believe Josh was faster than I was. I seriously want to kick myself right now.

I have a feeling Dominic is going to nominate myself and Rachel. If that happens then I don't see how people are going to want to keep me over Rachel so I'd be sure to go if I don't win Veto. The problem with this whole scenerio is that I feel like all the sudden people are going to start becoming challenge beast and I'm going to have to fight that much harder to stay. On the bright side if I am voted out at least I make jury.

I'm glad that I'm in an alliance right now but I can't see Dom not nominating two people from the alliance. Unless he plays it safe and nominates Cassandra. However I would be presented with another problem if that were to happen. Cassandra and I both suggested working with one another, she suggested it first actually... but we did work well together at the end of our season so I hope she's being honest with me and not playing me at all. Then again this is Big Brother, the majority of the time people are playing you. I am glad it's Cass that came back rather than Jason or Nick.

I just need one more HoH win to feel comfortable so if I make it this week I have to try so hard for the next head of household. Although, I think we're due for a luck challenge and those are never good.

What the heck am I doing. It's like I'm feeling sorry for myself or something and I'm never going to get anywhere feeling like that. I fought my way through last season and I can do it again this season. If I get nominated then I just fight for veto.

[Karen O'Neil]

It's a bit obvious that I'm the main target. I just have to win veto but with the way my luck has been, blah. I'll do my best though.

[Karen O'Neil]

You know what really sucks. That my alliance hasn't really said anything to me since the nominations went up. I love the support guys. Had I have known you guys were going to be like this I would have never offered to be in the alliance at all. Drew's "good luck in the veto" was almost like a "Haha - in your face." type of of shit.

I'm beginning to wonder if I've even trusted the right people. That's pretty sad that I'm starting to distrust my own alliance. I'm totally going after this veto like it's nobodies business and if I win I'm going to laugh my fucking ass off. If not, I'll take my place on the jury with class. Then at that point I won't have to deal with the drama or stress of the game at all.

[Karen O'Neil]

Slightly worried because it's been 24 hours and I haven't been able to do PoV yet. I've been on and offline all day checking in and IM'd Julie so I hope this one has a longer than 24 hour deadline